Another year zoomed by and here I am with my annual post!!!😉
So 2018 saw me being more focused at work…with having to stay away from my daughter but career wise, 2018 gave me the boost I needed…
So January saw me chilling out with my 15 month old daughter..partying..visiting my parents and getting to meet my nephew Laksh..
Rhea my daughter too bonded with him,displaying signs of being the elder sis..🤗
My dad was the most happiest having both his grandchildren with him for the various occasions that followed..
A few ups and downs and Feb – March I was with my in-laws at Banares, who wanted to spend time with their grand daughter..
(I love Banares..you can find my many links to posts on banares..) My in laws stay there so visiting that place makes me soo soo happy..
April, ahhh the most difficult month for me as I joined work..wanting to do my fellowship..I had to leave Rhea at my dad’s place…the thought of leaving a 16 month old baby and going away for few months was heart breaking.. I am sure all the mother’s can relate to this..
The turning point when your baby needs you, your baby hasn’t ever been without you since the time she was born and you decide to wean her off abruptly..ugghh It was truly difficult for me..sooo very difficult that I ended up sick with high fever that lasted almost a week after leaving her.. I have never fallen so sick in my entire life..moments of sadness..loneliness..mixed feelings about not having your little one around you is truly depressing but I had to do what was best for both of us..So gearing up for what was in store I started work at a completely new place..
May, saw my dad visiting us with Rhea…I was apprehensive thinking what if she has forgotten me-her mother!! But to my delight after 57 days of staying apart, my lil one was shy on seeing me and readily clinged to me, that is when the saying “Only babies know how their mom’s heart beats both inside and out ” sounded sooo true to me..cause only she could know that..
June, saw Rhea travelling back with my Mil and the parting was difficult..she being soo small couldn’t understand what was happening ..I just wanted her to be happy with or without me..
I dived back to work..focussing on sharpening my surgical skills..
Thus passed June..July and in August..I visited my daughter..just for a couple of days but it was soo amazing to see her chattering away nonstop and clinging back to me…the goodbyes are always painful..
I cried and cried that yet again I had to leave her with the only consolation that I would be seeing her soon in about a month’s time..
End of September, my lil baby was with me again..my in laws visited and stayed with us for a month..
It was a hectic yet calming month..I had my work and Rhea too..
Morning to evening slog at work and evenings coming back eagerly to see an equally excited Rhea..who used to jump and shout with happiness on seeing us..
October, my daughter turned 2 years old!! My my a biguhh girl..seemed like she was born just yesterday and now she is all grown up( I am sure all parents feel that way)
We had a low key celebration, we had our trip to Singapore too, a much needed break from the hectic everyday schedule..
Rhea is back with my in laws now..happy as can be.. November and December she celebrated Diwali and Christmas with them..hoping to catch up with her soon..
Thus ended 2018 for me with ups in my career and my daughter learning to be independent at such a young age..
I am actually happy cause when I look back I see that me and Rhea both are in our happy zones..
Maybe it is essential for all mothers to make that decision, be it weaning off your baby or getting back to work..
It is heartbreaking for every mother but as I always say one has got to do what one has to do..
I see many friends complain that their toddlers just don’t stay without them, don’t sleep or eat without them forget that, they don’t even go their fathers..
That way I am quite lucky cause Rhea has adapted soo well.. I am sure in her lil heart and mind she does want Mumma and Dadda ( maybe)
But she is such a cheerful and adjusting kid that I am indeed lucky that I get to be her mother…
So this sounded more like a mother’s day post rather than the year that was..but for me it was truly an eventful year and hope that the next year sees me getting to be with Rhea more..
Apart from Rhea..I found new friends..acquaintances.. colleagues..call them anything, a bunch of wonderful people at work!!
It is indeed surprising that how one year you are all alone,a mental wreck, deprived of sleep and hating socialising, with a one year old to take care of, attending to her needs being the sole priority of life..at times of depression, questioning what is the use of being soo educated when all you are doing is changing diapers and cooking meals and then reminding yourself this is motherhood and it has to be enjoyed with its ups and downs..The very next year you are soaring career wise and the little one is blooming into an awesome individual with a mind of her own..
Life is good..touch wood…
..I have no regrets..I love being a housewife/career woman and a mother
Now what’s in store for me the next year only time will tell..🤔
As always, What do I look forward to, in this new year..👀 👀
Ahaaa..hmmmm..errrrr…nothing much..no specific resolutions cause I don’t stick to them but yes, every passing year I find myself evolving to be more mature..
So there you go you have a mature me,Nee!!😛
A silent prayer to god to keep my dad healthy, hearty and in good spirits..💕💕💕
So once again I am really happy to share this with my wonderful wordpress friends.. 😃
Not sounding overtly dramatic
Hope all of your dreams come true too..
May all of you achieve what you have always wanted..
Let good health and peace prevail..
Make some one happy each day with a little act of kindness..( m still trying too)
Live and let live..💕💕💕💕
And let’s all jingaa la la la hooo people!!!💃💃💃
Until next year… It’s the time to disco ..whoo hooo