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She set out positively for her scan after a week and half, hoping the medicines had helped, hoping her poppy seed had developed more by now..
At 9 weeks.. She had the terrible symptoms of morning sickness in full flow .. But she hadn’t lost hope.. She would stay positive for her poppy seed she thought..
Yet again the scanning procedure was to follow.. She lay down hopefully and waited calmly..
The radiologist was quiet again.. 1-2-3 minutes and she waited unable to move or breathe.. Finally the doc spoke up..
“I am sorry.. There is no heartbeat yet and the foetus has not grown..”
He turned the monitor to show her the image.. She could just see the gestational sac enclosing the embryo which she felt had grown beyond the previous size and yet no heartbeat!! ?? She felt her world collapse..
So shattered..
She just held her breath and could not help the tears flowing down her cheeks..
Her poppy seed hadn’t grown over the past 10days!!
No it couldn’t be so..She had imagined to see her poppy seed with a tiny heart, beating rapidly..
This could not be true..
The doc was kind to her and let her recover from her shock.. She dressed in a daze and was seated quietly in the waiting room, awaiting the reports..
When they did come she glanced at it, it was gut wrenching..
The report!!!That line!! “Suggestive of intrauterine embryonic demise!!!”
She felt so miserable reading it.. Her poppy seed was dead..plain and simple dead!!
She bust out crying.. How could the little one give up.. She hadn’t given up yet.. Flashes of thoughts passed by..
The time she took out the the kit..
The two pink lines..
The first scan..
The embryo growing into a foetus..And now all was gone..
Nothing left to love or talk too.. She did not know the reason..the cause!!
It was a case of plain simple Missed miscarriage..
She had to rush home.. Yes she had to.. This wasn’t true she felt..
The following week saw her having a series of consultation with her doc and finding no hope left and the only option being surgery or what’s called in medical terms as DnC ( Dilatation and Curettage)..
Garfield Hug said:
😢😢😢💕💕💕
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Neethu said:
I know it’s sad and m sorry cause my blogger friends haven’t read anything like this from me..but just wanted to share it so I did..💞💞💞
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thatmishmash said:
I don’t know what’s worse Nee , never been able to see even a sac growing inside of you or having a life truncated ..I wonder what made you write this piece. I hope all is well . Hugs.
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Neethu said:
I feel it’s better to see the negative response than harbour hopes and feel bad later..which will hurt even more..just my opinion..but then again not being able to even experience that one bit is more heart wrenching..just felt I had to share this, as this topic is considered a taboo kind so I did..💞💞💞
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thatmishmash said:
Yeah can’t tell what is better or worse . I guess we just learn to deal with what life has to offer us , some cope better than others though . You have a good Sunday 🙂
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Sheila Moss said:
Is this story about you or someone you know? It seems too detailed to be fiction. If you, I’m very sorry for your loss.
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Neethu said:
Hello mam..thank you for stopping by and giving your valuable time and reading through ..I appreciate your kind gesture ..💞💞💞😊
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tingleurtastebuds said:
Are you ok Neethu. Feeling like to comeover to hug you and reassure you all is well. My dear I can only say that distracting our thought out of this will definitely make it happen.
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Mick Canning said:
So sad. So sorry.
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Neethu said:
Hello…thank you for your time and for stopping by..cheers..
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woolmakerlane said:
Very poignant and thought provoking. Thank you Neethu
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New Bloggy Cat said:
Aww….sending more bear hugs ʕ ⊃・ ◡ ・ ʔ⊃
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Sarah said:
So sad. Like many women I have also known this heartbreak. You’re right, there is a taboo about it, so many women feeling the deepest sorrow and loss in silence. x
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Neethu said:
Glad you shared too…huggzzz💞💞💞💞
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